Tuesday, April 24, 2018 - Houston, TX and Columbus, GA
Drop the needle,
The last few days have been adventurous. I took a trip to Houston and Georgia. Seeing Jermaine through clear eyes instead of a screen was such an amazing feeling. He took me to the aquarium and it was beautiful. We rode the Ferris wheel and it was my first time on one. Our time together was amazing and insightful, but also cut short. I knew our time was going to be limited but I really couldn't prepare too much. I am missing the way he feels and the way his hands moved across my skin. After meeting his family, I knew that he had to be someone special.
I had a good time with my family. Seeing my nephews was fun. I love seeing them happy. Surprising mom at the restaurant. She was so happy. My time was short but she was still happy that I cam. I do miss my family but it also made me realize that I need to keep pushing to make it.
On a side note, my sex life in still nonexistent. Being a 23 year old virgin is not my favorite part of my life. I went to a sex shop and I have never felt like less of a women than when I was in that store. I never thought about trying it but I want to feel somewhat normal. I feel so weird and alone and I don't want to anymore.