The M Word

Thursday, June 5th, 2025 - Atlanta, GA

Drop the needle - The Race by Wiz Khalifa

So, I'm gonna start listing the music I'm listening to as I go through the moments of sharing my life right now.

Anyway, I'm still trying to figure out the daily grind in America. It's like we're all just barely getting by. Lately, I've been feeling the struggle of working so hard for the life I want while letting the little bit of life I have slip by. Ever feel like you're stuck in traffic and wonder where the hell everyone else is headed? This is the longest game of sims I have ever played and I am not even controlling the screen.

I imagine I'm heading to a better place than where I am now, and part of me thinks I might be in over my head. I manage other people's property and finances, but I have no idea what I'm doing with mine. Spent time trying to further my education to get away from the general trauma of cutting generational setbacks and managed to still end up a damn statistic.

Meanwhile, you look at me with hope, like I'm leading you to the best days. Am I? How can I be sure I can lead you to your greatness when I'm not even sure I've found mine?

I hear people praising me like what I'm doing is groundbreaking and that I should be proud of how I'm handling my life. When am I supposed to stop feeling like a fraud? It really hits me when I see the look in your eyes and you say that word that reminds me I can't fuck up. I mean, I can, but I should really try not to. God I hope I am at least heading in the right direction. Hell I'll take mapquest at this point.

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