Thursday, May 17, 2018 - Sacramento, CA
Drop the needle,
So right now, I'm just kind of here. These last few days have been a bit chaotic. I've been preparing for Jermaine's arrival and am trying to keep my emotions in order.
I had my first ride along on Tuesday night and it was my first homicide. I can't shake the smell. She was only 4 years old and to do the things that they did to her is something I will never forget, along with the smell. Then I went to campus to help with the in processing the FEMA team leaders. I think I handled myself well when we saw each other.
I have to keep reminding myself that he came here to do a job and I am trying to stay out of his way and focus on my life. As much as it feels like time stands still when I look in his eyes, reality is till moving forward.
The academy is drawing near and I'm still waiting but I am still going to work hard to be sure I make it. I'm using all of my resources and making sure I'm proactive in the arriving time.