Sunday, March 25, 2018 - Sacramento, CA
Drop the needle,
I have been a true blind person. I refused to see what I needed to see. I realized that once in a relationship, I stop relying on myself for encouragement and strength and unfairly proceeded to gibe the unrealistic expectation onto my partner. It is unfair and I want to apologize so much but words can't explain how I feel.
I need to seek out true strength and encouragement from myself. I need to rely on myself as if I am single but allow him to show me love and receive it. I know it will take time, but I am more than grateful to be in a relationship that teaches me to be a better version of myself through prayer and faith.
God, hear my prayer. Make me new. Reveal to me the strength I have always had, just couldn't see. You know the desires of my heart and I ask for your forgiveness. I am not who I am meant to be, but with you, I know I will get there. Thank you for your grace, mercy, and unconditional love. You are my constant, my light, and you make me whole. Thank you for loving me. Amen.