Updated: Dec 7, 2020
Sunday, November 20, 2016 - Oregon
Start the needle,
My head is spinning at 100 mph. There are emotions that I can't explain and the more time I don't think about them the less real they seem. But I know that they are there. Maybe it's just the not knowing whether or not I will be getting a call saying if or that I got the interview. I want it so bad, I can taste it.
Though my mind is wrapped up in my potential future, my past and my present are intertwining as the days of previous memories haunts the calendar. To know that my family will never be complete again. It's if my life will change everyday but the one that's coming up. Time once again stands still for that day. Nothing but wonderful memories that remind me that life will never be the same and that I have to keep going. If not for me, than for the ones loved and gone.
Dear God, steady my heart and breathe comfort into my soul.