Updated: Dec 7, 2020
Monday, February 20, 2017 - California
Start the needle,
I'm finding myself enjoying the comfort in being alone which lately seems a bit odd, given the fact that I've wanted nothing more than just to be in the comfort of those who love me. The only problem is, I don't exactly know who they are. I mean in the people outside of my family. When I was dancing, it was different, I was accepted for who I was and the stories I could tell with my gift in dancing. Now, being transparent outside of dance seems to be the thing I have to prove to others is "normal." In all this chaos, I can barely see my future ahead of me. I ask God but I don't know if he hears me. My heart moves for so many reasons, but it has no concept of time or money. What am I afraid of exactly? My mind seems to change like seasons about what I want to do with my life. Is something wrong with me? Why can't I seem to finish something that I start? Why am I here? What is my purpose?