Wednesday, November 27, 2019 - Sacramento, CA
Drop the needle,
There doesn't seem like time has even gone by. I can still remember the pain of this week as if I was living through it all over again. No matter where I am in the world, the feeling of disbelief and pain flood my senses. There seems to be no comforting this feeling. I wanted to depend on him for this time but with everything going on with his parents and grandparents, I can't really see him as the strength that I would like. In reality, the only person that could remotely ease the hurt is me.
6 years has gone by and I'm still not ready for anything about this week. The family that I love are absolutely no help emotionally because they're trying to deal with it just like me.
I wish grandma was here but I understand, and I hope and pray that you both are right where you need to be. I miss you both so much and it hurts because with every day, I feel like I lose a piece of you both. I pray that I keep as many memories as I can hold onto.