Monday, September 17, 2018 - Sacramento, CA
Drop the needle,
I'm finding that I'm doing ok with each day that goes by. I'm still not sleeping the way that I would like to but it's sleep none the less.
Me and Jermaine parted ways as I thought but I'm pretty numb to it all. I've been burying my mind as much as possible into my work. I have to keep living. It's weird to even touch another man after him, but I have to move forward. He's not spending his time thinking about me, I'm never going to stop loving him but I have to be realistic.
I'm supporting myself through the journey into the police department. At the end of the day, I'm the only I can depend on anyway. I'm numb to the world but there is a fire in me that I refuse to let die out. It's me against the world and me and god are all I need.