Friday, May 22, 2020 - Sacramento, CA
Drop the needle,
It's been a long road. I'm getting through everyday but I lost track of time. My sense of purpose has changed so much, I'm not sure where I'm supposed to be. I've been in California 4 years now and I'm not where I thought I would.
I came up with this crazy idea about starting a business. Baking and what not. Something to pass the time. Something to give me the missing piece. I still don't know who I am it seems. Home is calling out to me but I'm not too sure where that is for me.
Where is my sense of adventure? Where is the drive that brought me out here? Why am I so against feeling love from someone who finally deserves it? I am just a shell and I don't know what I'm supposed to be made of.